5/22: 133.8 lbs, 26” waist

5/23: 133.8 lbs, 26” waist

5/24: 134.8 lbs, 26” waist

It will be up again tomorrow because it’s another running rest day and I messed up my food again. At least I didn’t finish everything I bought. I actually threw away the last few bite of a pizza roller. I suppose that’s progress.

Yesterday I got 2 points for LDLC, so that makes 5/11. Today I plan to do some leg strength stuff when Jeremy & I get back from watching The Avengers!  

He decided he did want to see it in the theater, so we’re going tonight so that I don’t have to take pictures at the school’s graduation. I never go to graduation because I don’t teach high schoolers. The headmaster volunteered me to one of the parents to take pictures. I told them I’d do it if I didn’t have any plans, but I don’t have the right kind of flash so the pictures wouldn’t be very good.  Well, now I have plans. (I told them this last week; i didn’t just spring it on them.) I really didn’t want all that pressure on me.

I may also do gun show Thursday after we get back. I don’t know. I’m afraid it’s annoying if I do it every week. I’m running out of ways to make it interesting.

Woah! I got a ton of new followers overnight! Where did y’all come from? Is it because this picture is blowing up with the reblogs again? If you want to know more about me, this is the place. (It’s rather long and disorganized.) If you wonder why I don’t automatically follow you back, this is why. If you feel you fit the criteria, please let me know, here or in my ask I love making new friends. If you know you don’t fit, introduce yourself anyway! I can still be your friend!

(Do I need a new waving gif since my hair is gone?)

In other news…

• Today I’m skipping school using one of my 3 remaining sick days that don’t roll over. I’m dropping off my schools Soles4Souls collection then driving to Georgia to my parents’ house with a stop at a thrift store or two on the way.
• I won’t be on much today or this weekend because of this.
• Don’t forget about the CD swap! I’ve gotten a few addresses already. Remember that you have until next Wednesday.
• Tomorrow is the Warrior Dash! I’m going to go with regular socks because some of y’all made a good point about knee socks getting wet and heavy.  Jeremy and my coworkers, knowing how accident prone I am, are all convinced I’m going to get hurt, so my goal is just not to get hurt. 
• Today I weighed in because I wanted to take all my measurements (for the first time since Mar. 26) and I weighed 130.6. I don’t even know how that happened. I was 3 pounds heavier 2 days ago. I thought I was eating enough. I never have bog drops like that except right after a day or two of excessive eating. I haven’t been that low in over a year. It also means I’ve lost 39 1/2 pounds since my high weight.
• On a related note, this morning I felt like my abs look better than they did those brief moments I was at my prior goal weight of 127. I may be slightly bigger now, but I’m definitely fitter.
• Now I need to do my push ups & abs, get dressed, and pack so I can get out of here.

Have an awesome weekend, everyone!

For all those new to the program, I also post some other measurements besides just weight because that’s a better record of my maintenance.

High weight: 170 lbs

Starting: 147.6 lbs, waist: 28 3/4, stomach: 36 1/2

Last Monday: 133.2 lbs, waist:  26, stomach 32 1/4, body fat % 19.8

Today: 133.4 lbs, waist: 25 7/8, stomach: 32 7/8, bf: 19.7%

Still maintaining like a boss, though not quite as small as I prefer.

If When I get my secret eating under control, I know this will be no problem.

In other news, I got my first dirty comment on one of my youtube videos- one where I was doing jumping jacks for some tumblr challenge. Now I’m off to go block the sicko.

I had been looking forward to snack time all morning because I had the rest of the pineapple I cut with strawberries from the freezer.

The rest have been absolutely scrumptious, though.

My body makes no sense. Yesterday morning I ate an entire box of Walmart bakery white chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies and didn’t I didn’t eat the rest of the stuff I brought.

I bought a single slice of Edward’s cookies & cream frozen pie from the Dollar Tree when I went to buy new running sunglasses.

I ate a normal sized amount of dinner at our friends’ house when we were babysitting AND ate one of the cookies that she made.

The only working out I did yesterday was week 1 day 2 of 100 push ups (10+12+8+8+26(max)=64).

Fridays are one of my weigh-in days. I was less this morning than Monday AND my waist & stomach were smaller than yesterday. 

And I started today which makes the loss even weirder.

Somehow it makes me feel guiltier about the cookies.

I feel like I don’t talk about my life much any more. I do the question thingies and post pictures and my runs, but that’s it.  I’m going to try to put a little more me back into my blog.

There was no challenge posted for the past week, so instead, I’m going to update my weekly measurements & share some other thoughts.

Measurements:

week 1: 135.0, waist: 26 1/8, stomach 32 5/8, body fat % 20.3

week 2: 132.6, waist: 25 7/8, stomach 32 3/8, body fat % 20.4

week 3: 135.2, waist: 26, stomach 32 1/4, body fat % 20.4

week 4: 135.6, waist:  25 7/8 , stomach 32 1/4, body fat % 20.3

week 5: 134.8, waist:  26 1/8 , stomach 32 5/8, body fat % 21.0

week 6: 135.0, waist:  26, stomach 32 1/4, body fat % 19.6 

this week: 133.2, waist:  26, stomach 32 1/4, body fat % 19.8

So you can see how worthless the scale is.  Whenever this happens, it makes me fear I’m losing muscle. Then I actually get sad about the scale going down, haha.

But the real difference is that last night I only ate a tiny bit before bed and last Sunday I ate a bowl of chocolate oatmeal right before bed.

Other thoughts:

• I still want to maintain below 26”, not at it.
• I’m having more days where I don’t dislike my body.
• Yesterday I bought frozen sweet potato fries from Walmart, baked 1 serving and ate them dipped in plain Greek yogurt mixed with ~1 tbsp of caramel almond butter. It was pretty awesome. I recommend it.
• Today’s running temps should be a little more bearable than last week- low 80’s and humidity in the 60s is better than near 90 or cooler temps, but humidity over 80%.
• I’m thinking about starting a hair blog to document my hair growing back out and the things I do with it.  If I can keep it up for the 2+ years it will take, that will be pretty awesome, I think.
• I received the most amazing message from a stranger about my hair from someone who saw it by searching haircuts. It’s one of those that I screen cap so I can save it on my computer forever.
• I’m feeling a little better about it today. I do greatly dislike the attention, though. Especially when it comes from comments like, “Woah!” and “What’s up with the chop?” 
• My hair probably won’t actually go into a wig because it was colored. Locks of Love can still sell it and use the proceeds to pay for the costs of making wigs, though. 
• I’m going to try not to chemically color my hair this whole time because I want to do Pantene Great Lengths next time. You only have to donate 8”, but they only take virgin hair or hair that’s been colored herbally.
• I do like it lighter, though, so I’m going to try chamomile tea.
• After I make my goal of 5 miles in 43 minutes, I think I’ll make my next goal 7 miles in an hour.

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 135.2, waist 26 1/4”, stomach: 33”, body fat: 20.7%

Today: 134.8, waist 26 1/4”, stomach: 32 5/8”, body fat: 20.8%

I wasn’t expecting much since yesterday was the first good food day in a while.

Whenever the scale goes down and bf% goes up, I always feel like my muscles must be wasting away. 

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 133.4, waist 25 7/8”, stomach: 32 7/8”, body fat: 20.0%

Today: 135.2, waist 26 1/4”, stomach: 33”, body fat: 20.7%

so, yeah. I need to make sure I’m actually hungry before I eat. I think I also don’t need to eat as soon as I think I’m hungry. I need to give it time to make sure I really am hungry.

That’s all. At least my hair is awesome. Or it was when I left the house.

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 133.0, waist 25 3/4”

Today: 133.4, waist 25 7/8”

New things:

stomach: 32 7/8” (goal ~32 1/4”)

body fat*: 20.0% (goal under 19%)

I think these are reasonable goals. These are places I have been physically and felt more comfortable than I do now. I’m not planning on losing and losing until I think I look good because I know that won’t work.

_{*according to my handheld monitor, for whatever that’s worth. My real % is probably higher.}

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 133.6, waist 25 7/8”

Today: 133.0, waist 25 3/4”

If you remember, I was at 136.0 on Monday. This right here is why it’s so silly for me to stress about the scale. The scale is still helpful, though, to help me stay reigned-in.

Today was supposed to be end-of-month measurements, but I forgot to grab my paper with my chart, so I’ll try to do it tomorrow.

Smile Friday/ Fitblr fashion February

sweater: Bongo (I mostly bought it because it was $1.50 at Sears and I can’t resist deals like that, but I do kind of like it.)

gray long-sleeved tee- Target

jeans- the only skinny jeans I have, so the same ones as before

shoes- Isaac Mizrahi for Target (I really need new black flats because these are several years old and have gotten pretty worn on the bottom)

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Concerning the flaskback Friday picture, my size back then, and my maintenance now:

First, thanks for all the compliments & support. I appreciate it every time, even if I don’t always send thank you messages.

Second, Maintenance for me does not mean just “I don’t want to lose more pounds, but I want to lose fat and gain muscle, this actually getting smaller.”  I’m not trying to lose any more anything. (If that makes sense.) If I lose more fat, even if I “replace” it with muscle, I won’t have enough fat left in my chest meaning 1. I’ll be even smaller chested, and 2. My “chest ribs” will show. 

I’m really not even looking to gain muscle, either. (GASP! Fitblr blasphemy!) While I like my calves, I still have a hard time dealing with the size of my thighs. That’s the one part of my body that I often still can’t even look at in the mirror. I’m not going to sacrifice muscle to have smaller legs, but I don’t want either part of my legs to get bigger.  I’m also not too concerned with having super cut arms. I would like to improve my strength some more, but I don’t really want to add size.

Maybe some of you will relate to this. Maybe some of you will think I’m thinking about this too much (which I am). Maybe some will be disappointed and unfollow me.

Regardless, this is how I feel, and I wanted to let y’all know where my thoughts were coming from.

Seriously.

I can’t wait for all of you to reach your goals and not have to worry about food so much.

It’s so freeing to not have to think about every bite and whether or not it will bring me forwards or backwards.

Now I run because I love it and do other exercise to get stronger (and help improve my running).

Now I try to eat healthily to be healthy.

I still struggle, as you know, with  some crazy food issues.

And some days I still don’t like what I see in the mirror.

But over all, it’s getting better.

And getting better is what it’s all about.

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 131.6, waist 25 5/8”

Today: 132.6, waist 25 3/4”

So… Monday my weight was 136 and my waist was over 26” after all the crazy eating & skipped workouts.

I ate super well on Monday. Yesterday I ate light and high in fruit & protein for breakfast, snack, & lunch, then ate all the sweet things at the Valentine’s Party, but ate really well at dinner last night.

and today is the first day of shark week, so I’m feeling pretty crummy. My run may get pushed to tomorrow because I want to do a timed mile so I can see how close I am to 7:00 for my 30 by 30 challenge. Running even sort of fast while I have cramps makes me want to fall over beside the path and curl up into a ball. Running for real makes me want to cry just thinking about it. If the cramps go away by the end of school, then I’ll do the run. If not, I’d rather wait until tomorrow when I can do my best.

High weight: ~170 lbs

Start weight (Aug. 2010): 147.8 lbs

2012 Start (1/1/12): 133.2

Last Week: 132.2, waist 25 5/8”

Today: 131.6, waist 25 5/8”

I’ve kind of been going back and forth between healthy days and slightly junky days, but it seems to be working. Except, you know, that crappy feeling you have when you eat a cinnamon roll & ice cream for dinner. Ooops. Lunch was excellent, though.

If I were to look at “negatives.”

• I’ll never have a flat stomach.
• I’ll never have those pretty ab lines when lying down.
• My thighs will always touch.
• My stomach and thighs will always jiggle.
• I won’t be able to say I’ve lost an amazing amount of weight like 40 or 50 pounds.
• Elastic waistband shorts will always give me a muffin top.
• I’ll never get to shop for a smaller size.

But then there are the positives:

• I’ll be able to wear my current clothes until I tire of them.
• I won’t have to worry about people saying I look “too thin” because my chest ribs show.
• I can shift my focus to other things.
• I can learn how I need to eat for the rest of my life.

Decided it was time for another before & after.

I thought I looked really nice that night. I was not at my high weight yet.

Oh, and days that I do a long run (and happen to count calories) I eat over 2,000. Just so ya’ know.