I'm Nikki. I love God and my Jeremy and my sweet baby Ryland everyone else, too.
I'm 5'6". I used to weigh ~170 pounds, then I was 140something for a while. I've also been around 130 and even below that. I'm not really focusing on all that right now. Now I just want to be healthy enough to be the best mom for Ryland.
I'll talk about my weight ups and down and running, but that's not what will make me better. I'm working to love myself better, treat myself better, and be a better Christian and wife. Expect to see a lot of posts about my son Ryland.
If you want, you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org!
4.2 total miles, about 1 of which was walking with the stroller.
I ran 2.9 by myself, but noticed my sweat was drying up & my feet were hurting, too, so I stopped to walk and switched off with Jeremy so he could run. (Ryland was drinking a bottle, so we had to tip the stroller back so he was semi-reclined, and you can’t safely run like that). He ran 1.5 miles without stopping! I walked some and then ran a little bit more.
No Garmin because it was almost dead, but it was nice to just run for the feel of it, especially since it was so hot (about 90 when we started).
Ryland likes to bite down on his spoon and make it stick up like that. It’s pretty funny.
Oh, umm, be expecting a post about some changes and a question.
Oh, and in addition to the 1/2 mile of walking to & from the splash pad and the running yesterday, this happened:
So over 5 miles total for yesterday.
I think a switch flipped in my brain yesterday. Here’s hoping I can keep it balanced and not let it swing to far the other way.
But really, I did SO WELL eating intuitively yesterday (besides letting myself get too hungry twice while out). I went to Starbucks to finish off a gift card & apply for All Kids insurance for Ryland, and realized that the lunch I had at home was not enough, so I got a cookie and savored it.
Last night, after I ate my dinner (leftover veggie bean soup I had frozen), I waited to see if I needed to eat more or not. After 5 minutes, I felt that I was fine for the time being. Later, I was hungry again, and wanted ice cream, so I had a small bowl (I like to use ramekins for ice cream), and filled the rest of the space in my stomach with a string cheese and homegrown strawberries.
Jeremy said that he didn’t think the dress & shoes worked together. I’ve told him in the past to let me know if something I wear doesn’t work.I was wanting other (honest) opinions, so I’m posting this from last night.
Monday’s run and yesterday’s quick cycle:
I’m still not really eating intuitively. I keep thinking, “I’m about to give up in IE, and go back to only eating super healthy with occasional treats when I deserve them.” Then I remember that the way I’ve been eating (more that I’m hungry for, when I’m not even hungry, impulse foods that probably aren’t really what I want) isn’t eating intuitively, and what I really need to do is listen to my body.
But it’s still hard to look at myself in the mirror and in pictures and know that the extra 10-15 lbs (depending on when we’re counting from) could be gone in less than a month if I tried.
My parents got to our house around 6:30 Saturday night. We ate the pork roast, potatoes, spinach salad, and homemade apple crisp.
Ryland ate pork, potatoes, and spineaches.
Jeremy surprised me with this card that he and Ryland made. I came in the kitchen, and Ryland was pulled up on a chair. Jeremy said, “Hey, Nikki. What does Ryland have a hold of?” It was the card. So sweet.
Sunday, we went to church. I clipped a tie on Ryland for the first time. We ran out of time to get pictures with my mom. :( I’ll steal some from facebook when my dad posts them.
Ryland’s pants kept falling off even though they’re 3-6 mo. size. his shirt is 12 mo. He is 8 mo.
We went to Red Lobster for lunch, and I was HONGRAY. So I honored my hunger and ate a 3rd cheddar bay biscuit after finishing my food (I had a small lunch portion of shrimp and broccoli).
My parents left from the restaurant because they had to make it back to the other side of Atl. to pick up their foster child before evening worship.
Jeremy’s parents, brothers, and brother’s GF got to our house a little before 4. We hung out until time for evening worship.
Afterwards, we went to Jason’s Deli to eat.
Ryland was a champ getting so much attention from people who are pretty much strangers to him. He stared at them all serious at first, but warmed up within 10 minutes.
p.s.Jeremy, the master photographer, took this gem that I had to share:
It was super muggy, so I took it pretty easy until the last half mile or so. I ran the first 1.9 without stopping, and then only for a potty break. The second half was also without any breaks. That’s the farthest I’ve gone with the stroller without at least a stretch break.
I was a sad bride because it was when I was engaged to Jeremy, but we hadn’t seen each other since I went home for the summer. I really wasn’t sad the whole trip.
Also, this is around my lowest weight ever- in the low 120s. I hadn’t yet snapped from the obsessive, must eat little and run a lot or I’ll gain the weight back to the secret eating that began that fall.
I even got up early most mornings to run before we hit the parks even though I knew I’d be on my feet all day.
Also featuring my favorite t-shirt: Dazzle the buck-tooth unicorn.
I haven’t been able to get online for a few days, so here’s my activity for the last three:
In both runs, I went a bit farther than I would’ve if I hadn’t been running for Gabe and all the others who can’t run.
I bought a running hat today because Jeremy noticed a brown area on my forehead. He’s afraid it’s a forerunner to skin cancer. Thanks to Robin’s post, I was able know to check out TJ Maxx. $25 hat for $5.99. Yes, please.
Tomorrow will be rest from cardio (4 days in a row!!!), but I’ll try to squeeze in some ab exercise whenever I can.
I don’t know how much I’ll be around but I’ll try to update again on Thursday after my next run.
My parents are coming Saturday!!!! We haven’t seen them since Christmas.
Trying to get a picture of his teeth. He kept saying, “heyhey” and “wuvwuv.”
There they are!
Last night, Jeremy was holding Ryland in his lap, and I was talking to Ryland and saying “I love you.” Then he tried to echo me and it came out like “I wuvoo.” Since then, he’s added “wuvwuv” to his babbling vocabulary.
Sometimes you need to wear a skirt around the house and then take pictures outside because you finally painted your toenails.
Having one of those “It’s my blog, so I’ll post as many pictures as I want” kind of days.
I’ve had decent body image the last couple days, mainly because I’ve avoided even trying on things that might possibly be too small.
On Saturday, Ryland gave me high fives (a first) and looked at Jeremy and said, “Dada” (another first).
Mondays tend to be super unproductive, but I did run and wash the dishes, so there’s that.
When I was walking at the outdoor mall on Friday, I passed Lane Bryant and was annoyed because their lingerie models basically were the same proportions as me but 6 inches taller. I’m annoyed not because it made me feel plus-sized (it didn’t) but because that’s not really a fair representation. Though I guess it’s kind of the equivalent to “normal size” models being underweight.
Also, their mannequins had thigh gaps. Yeah, okay.
Ryland is really into patting things. Sometimes that means he slaps his thigh or diaper. It’s pretty hilarious/adorable (hilarable?)
Did no one see this post, or did no one care? I was actually wanting a response.
Sometimes I think it would be funny not to go back and edit all my typos.