It’s pretty ironic that you asked this tonight when I’ve done so badly with it lately. Today I ate an entire carton (1.75 qt) of ice cream. I’ve never done that before. The craziest part is that I didn’t even feel full or sick afterwards. That tells you how bad it’s been. I’m debating with myself whether or not I should weigh tomorrow.

There’s actually been very few times that I’ve successfully fought the compulsion. I go through periods of either not being tempted at all or doing it nearly every day.

Strategies I’ve used to fight it:

• Calling someone on my way home so that I can’t call in an order/go through a drive-through without them knowing
• or, if it’s right before I’m planning to run, reminding myself that feeling like I’m going to puke while running is not fun.
• when I remember, I pray, but I sadly often don’t even think of it.
• when I had a goal (to not do it for 30 days) and I would buy a reward at the end (it was a 6n6challenge I am Made of Guts shirt) and reminded myself of the goal (and that I was posting it daily on Tumblr)- This isn’t feasible all the time, and I need to learn to resist without having to post on tumblr every single time.

Things that don’t work:

• calling yourself names
• telling yourself you can work out extra to make up for it

I pray that some day I can beat this for good and that you can, too. It’s so much more than just the unhealthy eating. It’s the dishonesty that kills me.